A Brand New Day For Me

Wake up with a weird feeling today...the first thing I take is my handphone. And it already contains 6 new messages. I read the first one, come from Rosmaria, my friend in UTM Skudai. I read it with smile "Happy Birthday..my dear friend"

So...today...is my special day. I feel like..some kind of feeling that I can't describe it with words. I can smile only...listening to SMAP, Dear Woman makes me feel like, today is a new brand day for me.

Arrive to the office, Kiki and Kak Fazi singing "Happy Birthday" loudly and clapping hand. 'dah tua dah budak ni...."

Hmm..Being in 23 years old..sometimes makes me think..I've face a new kind of era...I'm older and older (even I'm the youngest in my office now)..and I've left my teenagers time back then. I missed it..when two years ago, I celebrate my special day with all my friends and my dear one. And now, I've celebrate it wit all my officemate. How fast the time flow..I can't imagine myself next ten years. Where am I at that time?

An Appreciation Seminar

TRIZ - Theory of Inventive Problem Solving
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INVITATION TO HALF DAY SEMINAR ON THEORY OF INVENTIVE PROBLEM SOLVING (TRIZ)

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The Seminar will be held on Thursday, 22^nd November 2007 at BATC Seminar Room, UTM City Campus Jalan Semarak Kuala Lumpur. This Seminar is aimed at understanding the systematic ways to generate concrete ideas and concepts for product, service or process improvement, the resources available to become more creative and innovative for optimization and the most importantly it will be the platform to discuss, explore & share ideas on this new problem solving tools.

On behalf of Business and Advanced Technology Centre (BATC), Universiti Teknologi Malaysia, I am pleased to invite you and/members of your organization to the seminar.

my greatest weekend...with P.Ramlee The Musical

27 Oct 07

Wake up early today…because I’ve to go to the office and finish some work. Hai…sabtu pun kene kerja…my housemate muttering when I told her. Nak buat macam mana…

Finish my work at 6.00 pm when Amir, my friend call and ask for a date tonight. Hmm…why not..its been a long time I didn’t go out enjoy myself with all my friends. So, we agree to meet at my fav place, Oldtown White Coffee at Jalan Yap Kwan Seng, near KLCC at 11.00 pm. Before that, at 8.00 pm, I have an invitation from Kiki, to go to her open house (just for our officemate who is still single..heheheh).

Khaidir and Mat Det pick me and Farah at 7.30 pm. Kiki live in Shah Alam, so it takes almost 1 hour from my office to her. On the way, we stop at Tesco and bought something for her.

Cham, Kiki’s husband is not at home when we arrived. Kiki mentioned that he is in JB for show and tour with fanz. Kiki cooked spaghetti and pizza for four of us, but I can’t eat too much because…terlalu pedas! But the others were eating like there’s a bunch of spaghetti in front of them. Memang kuat makan…

After eat, lepak for a while and watch Pirates of Caribbean 2 before we go home at 11.00 pm. I ask Khaidir to drop me at Oldtown and there, I meet the others.

It’s been a long time I didn’t meet and talk with Amir, and surprised me, he looks so thin. Hey…what happen to you dear? Putus cinta kah?? We discuss everything..zapin..new handphone…Johor…until 1.00 am. Then, next destination is Danau Kota, Setapak. Amir wanted to buy spongebob bear…and I think of some new shoes.

After got what he wanted, we go home at 3.00 am..and I’m fall asleep in 3.30, after reading some books. Can’t sleep well, I feel headache…maybe because of drink too much white coffee. Nak buat macam mana…my fav drink =)

28 Oct 07

Wake up late after pray Subuh…10.00 am, I prepare myself to go out to the next open house, at Wadieburn Army Camp in Setapak. Kak Ani come and takes me at 12.30 pm.

Kimi serve us with Laksa Johor and mee hoon goreng. Her laksa is sooooo delicious! Siap tambah dua kali lagi…

After lepak at her house for almost two hours, we go to Istana Budaya, to watch P. Ramlee..The Musical. My dream plays this year….

When we arrived, it so hard to find empty park..all full because everyone come to watch this play. So we park at Balai Seni Lukis Negara…and exercise by walk away to Istana Budaya.

The musical play start 15 minutes late, but I didn’t mind at all. Yang penting I’ve already have the ticket, and now, I want to enjoy myself, watching my fav male singer, Sean Ghazi as P.Ramlee. heheheh…

Watching it for almost 3 hours…and I..keep stick on my seat..my eyes didn’t shift from the stage, watching every step and every way all the actor and actress played. I really feel it…adore the way of Azizah (Dato’ Siti Nurhaliza) allow P.Ramlee (Sean Ghazi) to go to Singapore to expand his career, sad when Junaidah (Atilia) ask a divorce from him, cry and angry with Norizan (Melissa Saila) because of her disloyal and simply love the way Saloma (Liza Hanim) and P.Ramlee madly in love. Hei….what can I say about this musical play?

This is one of the best musical plays I’ve ever watched. Such a great great musical play…so amazing and impressive! I love everything about this plays…the actors…the actress…choreography…the set…the prop…the songs…the music….everything! Sean Ghazi is such a great actor..and he can feel who is P.Ramlee in himself. His voice is such a great voice. (And that’s the reason makes me admire him so much! He is one of the reasons why I came to watch this plays =)). Among all his wife, I simply love the way of Melissa Saila bring herself as Norizan. She is the best actress in this play for me. The way she feels it, makes myself mad at her. Congratulations to you Melissa!

Not only Melissa, Liza Hanim also good as Saloma. Her voice is suitable with the way Saloma is, and the way she sing and act…sebijik cam Saloma.

Dato’ Siti Nurhaliza…emm…her acting is okay. But I love the song she sings for P.Ramlee when she asks him to go to Singapore.

Anything else about this plays? The choreographer? Well, one of the best. I think greater than PGL the Musical. And the music…oooohh…I love the music. Love all the songs! Engross me away. Especially the song from Siti Nurhaliza and the one that Saloma duet with P.Ramlee (from the movie of Bujang Lapok). Congrats to Erin Gutawa for making all the greatest and best music and for this P.Ramlee the Musical.

At the end of this play, we all the audience stand up, clap and yelling happily to all actors and actress. I lost myself for 3 hours, and also the end, I forgot who I am, yelling and whistling each other. When Sean Ghazi appears, I feel like wanna jump from my seat and run to him, shake his hand and said congratulations to him…but…hmmm…..I’m okay...still lucid and fine. Not crazy enough to do something like that even I admire him so much. =)

After enjoy for almost 3 hours, we go out, talking and muttering about the musical play. I try to find out whether Sean Ghazi and other actress are all around but failed. I just saw Datin Seri Tiara Jacquilena walk out from Istana Budaya, cheering happily with her friend.

Arrive home at 8.00 pm. I plan to continue writing my novel but my mind still hang and thinking about P.Ramlee the Musical. Feels like wanna watch it again, but the tickets sold out already. I hope there will be next P.Ramlee The Musical 2...so that I can watch it again. To all my friends out there, go and watch this musical play. So worth of it and I’ll dare say, you will love it! Congratulations again to all the actors and actress, Adlin, Zahim, Erin Gutawa and the producer, Tiara Jacquilena, for making the greatest musical play this year!

P.Ramlee The Musical

Have anyone watch this play? I'm gonna watch it this Sunday with my friends. Its been a long time I didn't watch any musical play, the last one is Ronggeng Rokiah, last year. I wanna watch PGL The Musical last August but the tickets sold out already. So now, when I heard that Enfiniti Production gonna publish new play, I set on my mind..I must watch it!Well, play is one of my interest. Masa student dulu selalu gak keluar tengok teater ngan geng study. Now, as a worker, I don't have much time to enjoy myself. Life just in the office, at home or Kinokuniya(reading books).

Wait until I watch it tomorrow, then I will post the story here...

Story....from the first day raya

11 Oct 2007

Arrived on 5.00 pm, after flight landing on 4.30. My eldest brother, Sham take me take me home. He looks very happy; I guess maybe because of me and others come back home after a year.

Home sweet home…when I arrived home, I got stunned by the changes of my little house where I grow up. There’s a lot of new thing added and old things gone..especially all the ducks in front of my house. Well, my father is a farmer and he also have some ducks..value added. But now, since daughters, all her sons and us all are in good condition and stable so he decided to sell all of the ducks and concentrate on his farm. Ohh…. I miss all the ducks. So many good and bad memories with all of the ducks…and I was with them since I was one year old. Ducks are one of the simplest farm animals to have. Jenis ikut cakap semuanya…. and sometimes…so pampered with us..hahahaha…

Bersalam dengan mak…I saw her crying. And that almost makes me cry…wonder how she feel at that time. I’m the only daughter that is far away from her, and jarang-jarang balik…that’s why she so sad and crying, hug me. Mak…don’t worry. I will always be your good daughter. hm…listening to Aman Shah, Kepulangan yang dinanti makes her cry again and again and me also….touched.

After talking with her, I get my dear Afiqah, who is also interested to hug me. Afiqah…I miss you so much dear…. and then I asked her to try all the shirt and baju raya I bought for her. She looks really cute, and what makes me proud of her is, my mom told me that Afiqah would finish 5 more verse of Quran. Wahhhhhh…I’m so excited heard bout it. After she finishes it, I plan to take her to Kuala Lumpur and live with me. So that I can take care more of her.

6.00 pm. My elder sister, Suraya arrived home and we started talking about everything after a year didn’t met. Sue looks so ‘sihat’…so happy I think, lived near with her fiancée. My mother and all my younger sisters busy preparing for buka puasa. I’m very lazy to help, so I discuss with Sue about preparation for raya tomorrow. 10 minutes before buka puasa, my second brother, Ijam arrived and….hampess! He throws his shoes to me and we all burst out o laugh. Aparaaaaaaaaa…….

After buka puasa, we all started to cook and prepared all the things for hari raya tomorrow. As usual, Sue will ask me to help her and mom cook, my sister, Siti to clear up the untidy house, Wani to iron all the baju melayu and baju kurung, my younger brother, Iwan will help on lemang and pelita, lampu raya. Being half of one big family is such a special gift for me…and I can feel it now….

Menu for hari raya tomorrow, kari ayam, ayam masak merah and daging masak kicap. I prefer cooking ayam masak merah because it is my fav menu, so Sue agrees to cook daging masak hitam and mom will preparing kari ayam. Whooaaaa…I can feel something when I touched the knife to cut ayam. Heheheehe…I didn’t cook it for a year..and now I will start it again. Phewwww…berpeluh jugak nih…..i have to admit that I’m not a good cooker, I just know how to make a novel or a short story with a mountain of idea…or playing with my pc and my work. That is me…

We finish cooking at 1.00 am…and while me and Sue tidy the kitchen, mom go to bed and I heard Iwan and Afiqah yelling in front. They are played with mercun and bunga api, and didn’t invite me…haiiyaaa….

So, in 1.00 am in the morning, all of us playing bunga api with laugh and yelled at each other. Sham and Ijam try to use mercun and it works. It flied up there and sparkle in red, soooo beautiful! I feel like standing in front of KLCC while New Year countdown..watching every different of mercun sparkle here and there…

We sleep at 4.00 am (itupun selepas dimarahi ayah…sebab menganggu jiran sebelah..heheheheh)..

Wake up at 6.00 am…my eyes and my mind blurred…but listen to takbir slow down from the radio wakes me up. Sham and Ijam already take a shower and they busy with their baju melayu and songket. Sue didn’t join us to pray so she prepares breakfast and food to give to neighbors. I want to take a shower first but change my mind after saw Siti, Jue and Afiqah sitting sleepy in front of bathroom, waiting for Wan inside there. Kene tunggu turn la nampaknya…so I help Sue with her breakfast, ketupat and ayam masak merah.

Go out pray at 8.00 am. After finish praying, we all go back and saw Sue are ready with her baju raya. Bersalaman with my parents…mohon maaf zahir dan batin. And then we were eating together, one of my family traditions in hari raya. Macam makan besar time Chinese New Year la juga…

While eating, Razlan call me and wish me Selamat hari raya. He and others was in Malaysian Hall, celebrate it with other Malaysian student in Japan. “rindu ketupat mak..” he said, makes me and Sue grinned each other.

First day raya, we just stay at home…there’s a lot of people come…means no time for beraya and us to go out. Until night comes, we all are sitting in front of TV…watching CINTA the movie in NTV7. My fav Malay movie after all…

Second day barulah dapat keluar beraya. We go out in 10.00 am until 10 pm…so tired. Jue start packing all her stuff to go back to work tomorrow. She works with MAS as ticketing assistant; take a leave for two days only.

Third day raya…seems like others are tired too. My house start to become untidy again…but everyone seems so lazy to makes it better. At night, we all play mercun and bunga api again…but brutal than before. I keep three of bunga api on my left hand and try to play it all at once but…seems like it bring a bad thing to me. One of the mercun drops on my feet. Painful can’t describe with words… Jeeezzzzz……

Fourth day raya…I was in clinic. Go without my parents know about what happen to me…just my sisters and my brothers only knows. Alhamdulillah…its just a little burn skin so I just put a handyplast on it and try to act cool..or else my mom and dad will realize it. So kekawan sume…janganlah bermain mercun…so dangerous. Hehehehe.,..

Salam Aidilfitri

Selamat Hari Raya everyone...

To all my friends in cari.com, prem, sarah....selamat hari raya and maaf zahir batin..

To all my chatmate in TZA blog(hmmm...), Tengku Zafrul, mm, pak zawi, jean, j'da and caramel...salam aidilfitri...

And to all my friends di perantauan..Shidah..Nor..Hakim and every malaysian student in NIoT..and very very special to Razlan..this song is for you

Aisyah - Pulanglah

Termenung ku sendiri
Memendam rindu tidak menentu
Kasih suci murni yang kita bina
Hapus hancur oleh kata fitnah

Di pagi hari raya
Hati sayu mengenang dirimu
Mudahnya kau menggantikan diriku
Seolah cintaku tak berharga

Apakah suratan
Aidilfitri satu titik akhir
Sekian lama bercinta
Kau tiada di hari mulia

Keampunan ku pohon
Sekiranya aku yang berdosa
Pulanglah ku merindui mu sayang
Ku menanti dengan hati rela ( jiwa raga )

Pulanglah kepangkuan ku oh... sayang
Ku menunggu mu di hari raya



Kepada yang memandu pulang ke kampung..berhati-hati di jalan raya
Pandu cermat...jiwa selamat!

Food??

Raya fever again!

Monday such a boring day....weekend fever still hang around in my office...

But Today...

I came lately to the office..8.15 am and saw something different. Kiki at her seat..smile with a deep meaning (I guess so). What happen to her ha? Tak bangun sahur kot..thats why she looks like that. poyo...hahahahahah...

Then, one by one my officemate arrive and surprise me too, my boss also come early today. hehehehe..this is not a monday fever. This is raya fever! haiyyaa..this makes me not in the mood to finish all my work. My desk looks like my boss's desk..everything messed up, important thing mixed with unimportant thing..and that totally makes me feel headache...Kak Su bought a new Sony Ericsson so I tried her camera, wanna see how is the pics.

wahhh...clean and clear. Nice hp camera she had. err...my desk...guys..if you realize something, there is a postcard on my wall. A navy postcard, got it from one of my client who is a navy.
Actually, I really want to be a navy, that is my ambition since i was young(instead of being a novelist). But..have to forget it because of health prob. Being so frust of it, I've taken anything related to TLDM when I was in Kem Sungai Besi a few months ago for a meeting with my boss. Posters, postcard and also a calendar..just want to calm my frustrated.
Then I try my friend's hp again, to take some pics in front of my desk.


kuih raya! kuih raya! hahaha..my desk and my printer become a place for selling food and biskut raya. alahaii....patut kene sewa tapak nih...BTW, the chocolate biscuit(the one looks like almond london)..memang sedap! I taste it before ramadhan and the chocolate is soooo yummy!
Wanna buy it? contact me before 10th of October.heheheheheh....

oh..by the way, pak zawi tagged me today (because I ask for it!heheheh) and I have to answer some simple question (simple ha?)

NAME 5 FAVOURITE FOOD THAT YOU FEEL LIKE HAVING NOW
Bubur jagung
Bubur kacang hijau
puding jagung
Kek lapis cindrella
Ayam masak merah (I'm hungry now!)


NAME 5 FOOD YOU WOULD LIKE TO HAVE FOR BREAKFAST IF YOU COULD
Roti canai
Kek Batik
Lontong
Puding jagung
Nasi lemak at Oldtown cafe, near to KLCC

NAME 5 FOOD YOU WOULD MOST LIKELY BUY FOR BERBUKA TODAY
(Actually, I will break fast at DSaji today, but nevermind...)
Roti John Brader at bazaar ramadhan in Setiawangsa
Jagung Bakar
Puding Jagung
Nasi Lemak Kukus
Ayam percik


NAME 5 FAVORITE BEVERAGES YOU WOULD LIKE TO HAVE FOR BERBUKA OR SUPPER TODAY
Agar-agar coklat
Teh Tarik
Nescafe ais
Chocolate sundae at McD
Vanilla Shake, also at McD



errr...thinking so hard about food. I think, myself is so simple when it comes to eating. Makan je apa yang ada asalkan halal but...susah juga nak buat pilihan. hmmm....but I can't put beside, my fav puding jagung and nasi lemak..heheheheheh..looks like tonight I have to go to Oldtown to have it.

Am I done?

Counting for Hari Raya

Here in my office...1.00 pm

Everyone looks so happy today. different from other days..tired and hilang semangat..fasting is the answer for that. But today..surprise me, I saw everyone cheer up and laughing. Then I reckon that Mak Tiri (title for one of our officemate that is famous as a busy body and bad talk about others) didn't come today. She's on leave...hahahahahaha...guys..you all happy when she's not around. One more thing, we all cheering up here because of raya. there will be 7 days more to go..and for me, there will 5 days to arrive back home. Hooo...I miss my family sooooooooooo much! Its been a year I didn't meet them, so this raya, should bring a deep meaning for me because my dear sister will be..hmmm..langkah bendul. wedding bells in my house so soon...hahahaha...poor me then..

Back to my story, I try to finish my job as soon as possible today. Got a long raya leave from my boss last week so I have to complete my job before I left it for almost two weeks. Abd Zul bring a new raya CD to the office today, and we keep playing it again and again with high volume until I can heard it in the ladies. Not only the radio, every PC start to play the same song again and again. Kiki sang it slowy from her seat, but i still can heard it. Guys....you all so excited.

Talking about raya this year, all of us got a long leave, except the staff of resource centre. Poor Adi, he have to work on the third raya. hmm...
Raya fever also means, business for everyone. Some of my officemate sold kerepek, biskut..and they put sample on my desk..aiyaaaa....I hate this. uh978^&*%(^%($$% But nevermind guys, because of raya, I forgive you all la)

Me...emm...I've prepare everything for upcoming raya. Baju raya..kuih raya...duit raya...macam macam raya....busy with this makes me forgot about Liverpool for a while. my friend told bout the game last week, I just..aik...ada game ke?? hisk...when she leave me, I looked at my timetable and yesss! Liverpool VS Marseille, 3rd October. huhuhuhu.....sorry Gerrard.

my novel? hm...got a big prob...that is always come at the last minute...last night, as usual, after break fast and pray, I sit in front of my pc to continue my novel. But then...I looked at my pc with a blur mind. ahhhhhhhhhh.....I didn't have any idea. What can I do now?? I try to read from start again until I feel headache..alamak...macam mana nih? My novel is in the end of writing now, but I lost my idea.....aduuhhhhh....almost cry thinking of it...what can I do now guys??

ah...forget about it. Raya will coming soon, and I've to forget about it for a while...

Tonight...another game...

Tonight I'll stay in front of tv again..to watch my fav team, Liverpool vs Birmingham City.

This one for the captain, Steven Gerrard.


gO gO Liverpool!!

Counting to convocation....

3 days more to go for our 9^th convocation. Things are really roaring up in the office now. We all running here and there, talking out loud, laughing with some silly jokes and sometimes couldn’t control our self, crying together..in process try to make everything perfect. My boss, deputy director and all of management community also working hard with us..and this makes me proud, having great boss like them. In this time, I can see and know which person can be friend and which is not. Sometimes, anger comes beside happiness, tempers flying all over..but it change immediately with laugh and some stupid jokes. I can feel the anger too sometimes, especially when it comes to everything about student. I don’t know how to say it sometimes but my student, not all of them have some kind of bad attitude. Means, in simple words, suka menyusahkan orang. Convocation will be held in few days later, but they demand anything..and me, thinking of our programme, I still have to concentrate about them. Ahhhh……

Yesterday, one of the students for executive diploma called. From 500 graduates, 420 is executive diploma student. It’s hard to control them, because of a lot of question about this convo and they keep called us every minute, every hour and every day until 7.00 pm sometimes. And me, I’ve to stay at the office until 8.00 pm just to make everything settled. Back to my story, the student called to ask about jubah and scroll for the convo. So my officemate ask him which class he attended, and he said, he is in the class in Jalan Ampang. We don’t hold any class in Jalan Ampang and when we heard about it, laughing burst out. Haiyaaaaa…apa la student sekarang nih….even my officemate said”apa ke sangap student nih..” J

Forget about my work now. Yesterday, I should attend an interview in Bandar Tun Razak, but I choose not to go. I think I’m the most stupid person in this earth, when I choose not to go. I mean, the job offered is definitely my dream job. Editor or writers. I dream this job since I was 14...and when it comes, I choose not to go. What happen to me? Why I didn’t want to attend that interview? I don’t think about it for the whole work hour, maybe because of my work load, but I when I arrived home, my mind start flying for the job. How can I think not to attend it?? I don’t know why…..and I don’t understand why. I didn’t really like my job now, but honestly, I’m happy working here. With all of my sporting officemate, happy and hilarious environment..even sometimes tension surround all over when two of annoying boss come and muttered about anything. Maybe because of that, its was hard for me to leave them. Ah…forget about it..or else I will regret it. I hate that regret feeling..tak apa lah. Maybe I will get other job better than that…tak ada rezeki lagi sekarang. Someday, I will be one of the most upstanding writers in Malaysia. I definitely will achieve it….

Still in The Mood of Merdeka

Monday..and as usual..I’m in Monday fever. Weekend mood still haunting me..and my mind keep thinking about my bed at home. Geezz…I can’t sleep well last night, maybe because of tired, walking here and there yesterday until 10.30 pm. I planned to sleep early, but when arrived home, XX Ray II broadcasted on TV9. That’s one of my fav malay movie so I watched it until 12.30 am. Wake up in a bad mood, but when I saw the chart for Barclays Premier League in NST, bad mood change automatically with happy and good feeling. Why? Liverpool maintain on the top of the chart after beat Derby 6-0 last Saturday..means Arsenal’s win against Portsmouth yesterday didn’t effect them after all. Good…go on Liverpool. I hope you all can boost the trophy this year...

Still in merdeka mood also, I didn’t celebrate last Friday at Dataran Merdeka. Wake up late is the main reason so I just watch it on tv. Bleh L…I regretted not attend the fest.. I’ve never seen the most beautiful celebration in 50 years merdeka like that..So colourful and hilarious. And my first attraction is YDPA Tuanku Mizan Zainal Abidin with Queen Nur Zahirah than others.

Queenie looks sooooo stunning and beautiful! , she such a pretty and courteous woman, and last Friday, I think that is the most beautiful her I’ve ever seen. I love the way she dress and her scarf..I wanna try it after this…hehehe..my housemate plan to buy it for our next dinner this Saturday. Oh ya..talking about dinner..actually I still in process searching and choosing the right dress to wear. Theme for that that night is batik, and I didn’t have much batik dress. I feel dizzy thinking of it, and I didn’t have much time to find it, Saturday, we has rehearsal for the whole day and I don’t think I can go out to buy it. Ah..looks like I have to go out after work tomorrow..

Forgot to story it here, last Saturday, we moved to our new house in Setiawangsa. Glad to have our own home..beautiful and comfortable..but I have to polish the wall and clean up the tidy kitchen today..looks like I have to go home early..

Congratulations to Liverpool
Win against Derby County 6-0
I will support you all no matter what happen!

You'll Never Walk Alone

I should be grateful....

Sitting in front of my pc, trying to finish all my work as soon as possible..but my head jammed at 11.30 am. I feel like dizzy for a while, confused looking on my desk, where all the files and the letter heap on top of another. What else I can do now??? I’ve to finish this entire thing before the end of today but I can’t! My ‘unhealthy condition’ push me to take rest for a while..and I started thinking about..other work that is much better than this work. In other word, means quit this job and try to do something else. Hai….if my mother know about this, I’m sure she will chatter against me. Sorry mum, but sometimes I can’t stand this job. I hate talking with people who believe that they are exactly true even they make mistake, and I hate being tied with protocol. Geezzz….what should I do with my dip in technology management if I have to work in this condition that is not really suitable with me, and the most important, I didn’t like this job after all. But I’ve no choice before, that between all my interviews, only this one is success and here I am now. I wish I can do something that I like, the job that I admire most. I wish to be a writer, and I’m still going on with it. After back from my work every day, I will try to finish my novel until midnight..with a dream that my novel will publish next year. Is it too old for me to be a writer? I have talent on this (not me said this, my teacher keep saying this to me when I was in secondary school)..and I hope I can build it after I got everything I need. Now, I’m concentrate on it, but for my work…I wish I can work in the world of marketing,. But not as a salesgirl. Here, in my position now, I also doing some marketing job, goes road show here and there, travel around Malaysia..but its doesn’t bring satisfaction in my life. Ah…maybe because of myself…

But when I think back again, I should grateful for this entire thing and my work. I’ve meet my friend, my school mate a week ago. She just come back from convocation in UTM Skudai, and surprise me, she looks older than the last time I saw her two years ago. Talking about our memories back then, she ask me about my work and I mentioned that I happy with it now (“m very hypocrite!) and now in process to buy a car. Maybe a Persona (I’m so interested with this new PROTON)..She looks so surprised and said that I’m a lucky girl. She sighed for a while, and started talking to me, after finish her study in Degree two months ago, she keep trying to find a job, but failed. She also said, “I’m a degree holder but I can’t find any good job. Its better if I continue to my previous job than further my study two years ago,”

I lost my word for a while, when I heard that. You’re much lucky than me, I said to myself. I wish to continue my study in degree, and she had it but now I’m in good position of my work, and she needed it. Back to my home, I keep thinking about it...my friends in UTM Skudai..they have degree, a master and good qualification, but they still jobless. I’m here now, I got a very good work, good salary, good boss..verything I have but I still ungrateful. Hmm…..

Because of this feeling, I’m stick on this job until now. Thinking of the last word from Tengku Zafrul Aziz’s article last two weeks, titled "A Body at rest tends to stay at rest while a body in motion tends to stay in motion".

“Employers may tell you that it’s not good to change jobs too often as it is a reflection of your fickleness and lack of loyalty but rather than listening to their words, I would suggest you look at where they put their money. Why else do you think they just rehired your colleague who quit five years ago for twice your salary?”

Congratulations for Joel ~ The First Winner for The Firm

Its been a while I didn’t write anything here..reason? Busy and busy..geezz...I hate that word very much, because it brings so many reason why I can’t be here always, why I can’t enjoy as much as I can with all my friend, and the main reason, why I can’t arrive early at home everyday.

Well, today is 27 August; means there is another 2 weeks before Ramadhan come, and Syaaban leave us. Time moves so fast until I can’t count and write, the best thing happen to me in my life everyday. Today, Monday..the most boring day for me. Ah…I hate Monday actually, coz on Monday, there is so many thing I have to settle and my weekend fever still hanging around my mind. Come early, and when I have to meet face-to-face again with Markonah (the person all of my officemate hated so much!), she keep mumbling and muttering here and there..ah..I feel like wanna kick her out from the office. Thank God I’m fasting today, so I can control myself to do anything bad. Thinking about her just brings me many sins only. Keh….^&*^&*%&^%(^%Gdhdfhfw..

Huarghh….its stil 8 am but I already feel sleepy. So tired since last week, I didn’t sleep well after watching Liverpool vs Sunderland, last Saturday. Liverpool win 2-0..huhuhuu..I feel like wanna jump and kiss my TV when the second goal come. Gosh…at first I didn’t confident enough for Liverpool to win against Sunderland coz Sunderland is such a good team too, and and Steven Gerrard (my fav player all the time) can’t enter the game because of his injury. Well, Liverpool did it well, and I started to wave my Liverpool flag here and there, sms my officemate told her about it. And she started yelled back at me (coz she is MU fanz)..sorry dear…heheheehhe

Before started my works, I open forum.cari.com.my as usual, wanna read any new posting by chat mate. All of them busy talking about The Firm last night, and I joined them, posts about my happiness for Tengku Zafrul Aziz choose Joel to be the winner. Joel is much better than Ernie for me, one reason why I vote him, coz he can be a good leader and follower, not as Ernie. Its true what Anrie said about him. Since the first episodes of The Firm, I always choose Joel to be the first winner. He is so motivated and talented, doesn’t match enough with his age. Its good for Tengku Zafrul Aziz to have a worker like him in Tunemoney.com. I wish, if I can be like him…. (berangan sekali lagi)

So, for Joel...wish you good luck and all the best. Work for Tunemoney.com...geez..everyone wish that..

Oh...forgot to mention, Tengku Zafrul Aziz already have his own blog now. http://www.tengkuzafrul.com/
So babeminah..you can now ask him whatever you want (^_^)..

Best Saturday and Bad Sunday....

Yesterday, 28 July 2007, I spent half of my day with one of my best friend, Azrina. Its been a long time I didn’t meet her, I think almost in 2 years. The last time I meet her is in October 2005. She looks so thin, but pretty and talkative as usual..hehehehe…Ina Ina..you didn’t change at all, and that’s make me proud to be your friend. (^__^) We walk away Jalan TAR, and discussing about ourselves since separated two years ago. She now work in Putrajaya, in Prime Minister Department as a clerk. Meeting her reminds me a lot of beautiful memories when we’re still in UTM as a student. She being known between us as a brutal gal..speak loudly and love to be ‘minah rempit’..heheheh..don’t be angry Ina…that is who you are. I remember when we’re in 3^rd year, I borrowed my friend’s motorcycle and ask her to drive me to Carrefour Wangsa Maju, to buy some goods. With the style of ‘bring it on!’ way, she drives me as fast as she could, but something happened at that night. Well, his bf, Kamal didn’t know she drive me away. And I’m sure he will getting angry and beholds Ina, to be in Perang Dingin for a while. So, back to my story, in front of UTM there is a traffic light, between PULAPOL and Selera Semarak (SS). We just get there when the light turn into red one. We stop and looked at the SS and..oh my..there Kamal and all his gang walking away to have a dinner. Ina almost screamed when I pulled her leg and show to her. “Oh boy…what I’m gonna do now???” she said with a panic face..me also panic and suspend, because I’m the person who ask Ina to go out. Both of us pretend to be somebody else and try to not look at him. At the same time, I feel like ‘peluh dingin’ already spread all over my body and imagine of something stupid..Kamal kick me away from the motorcycle and pull Ina to go back with him..uuuhhhhh…minta jauh makkk. When the light turn in green, Ina tekan minyak and I almost fall down from my seat..geezzz…she really a minah rempit laa..

We go back in 10.00 pm and pretend that nothing happened but then, Kamal called him and as I already think before, Perang Dingin meletus. I feel sorry for Ina and Kamal but then I surprised with him, because he didn’t turn in Incredible Hulk just like I imagine before..He apologized me just like that and ask me not to hide anything about Ina again..huhuhuh..is this Kamal? I feel like wanna knocking my head to the wall I my bed when Ina arrived back and told me about that. Dia perli ke apa? hehehe…yeah..its my fauld after all, bring out his gf with any permission from him. Hei..her parents didn’t mind I go out with her and merempit around here and there, why he should be busy body?Hmm..future husband..feels like its his responsibility to take care of him..good one Kamal. Wish I can have a bf just like you…*dreaming again*

Well, that’s the story two years ago. And now Ina standing in front of me with her wonderful smile..bring me a lot of memories back..it takes almost a year if I wanna story here..huhuhu…

So we walk all the way in Jalan TAR, window shopping…and then go to SOGO, and I buy a new sandal again…jeeezzz..how many shoes that I’ve now? I don’t why but it looks like, I’ve been also addict to buy a new shoes. Yeah..this is attitude of a woman. Got salary at the end of the month, my mind fly to a new sandal in Berjaya Time Square or SOGO…huhuhu..spend the money to something that bring just a little meaning to me. We walk away everyday but not everyone try to see what kind of shoes we wore. If there is, you should be lucky then…Huhuhuhuhu…

I arrive back in 7.30 pm and mind kept thinking to watch news 8.00 pm. But then, today is Saturday and that’s it! No news about the murder trial of that Mongolian gal so me with a very tired face, walk up and saw Ida sleeping. God..its 7.30 pm and she already on her bed! *thinking of jealous feeling* I sit front of my pc and staring on it, thinking of a new pc that should be arrive soon. But when?? That is only an imagination..bak kata orang..mengharapkan bulan jatuh ke riba..huhuhuh

After shower and pray, finish my novel with idea comes hanging around in my head. Ida woke up in 10.30 pm and we walk down, eating bubur chaca while watching Cerekarama together. I’m not really in mood of malay drama right now, so I watch it just gitu-gitu aje. My head keep thinking about my best friend in Johor now..and surprise me..he called me at 11.00 pm. I didn’t recognize his voice at first, because he sounds like someone who just wanna play with me. So I speak to him just like a police talk to prisoner and he laugh like crazy. “You didn’t recognize me safa?? Pity me…”

Its been a year I didn’t talk or meet each other..so this night everything out. We talk about all the memories back then, the journey to Japan in early 2005..all about my friends in JALINAN 04..I don’t know why but got really excited, thrilled and happy talking with him..I don’t mind he is a guy coz for me, he such a special friend that understand who am I.. thinking back then, two years ago..I started to know him in JALINAN..he as First Secretary and me is Second Secretary..I’m still new to the work as a secretary so I need help from him to teach me everything..and our friendship begins. We are so close each other until other members said that we are couple. Geeezzz….I didn’t think about that..neither once..He is truly my friend and I didn’t want to betray our friendship

We talking in 2 hours…and then I realize that time is 2.00 in a morning..My God! I’ve never call someone in 2 hours..this is something that broke my own life record..hehehehe..so I sleep with my lips smiling all the night..I feel like my heart is lighter than before and my mind so relaxing that I can’t imagine with a word. A feeling that I obtain after I watching The Lord of The Rings 2 years ago..

And silly me..no, me is so stupid today, I’m on duty, but because of talking almost 2 hours last night I woke up and saw my old clock with blur eyes..its 8.00 am! I jump from my bed, yelling to Ida to wake her up (she also work part time today)..I take a shower for 3 minutes only and prepare myself faster than usual. My mind keeps thinking of my odd boss at the office, and my heart pray and wish, hope she not arrive yet. And I’m so lucky then coz when I arrive there, my partner says that she also late just like me…huhuhuhuhu..alhamdulillah…

24th May..special day for me!

24th May

A very very great day for me. ^^ Why? There is three happy things happen today that I should celebrate. The first and the most important thing is...24th May is my mother’s birthday!

Mom..Happy birthday for you! You such a great mother in this world. No matter how sad you are, you never show it in front of us. No matter how happy you are, you never hide it alone. You try to make us happy and success in this life; even you’re hiding a very huge pain in your heart. Thanks mom for everything. You such a lovely and good mother for me, and I’m very proud to be your daughter. You are the greatest mother in this world and I will always love you. May Allah bless you and may your entire good wish come true. We always stay with you forever. Love you with all my heart!


24th May 2007. Pirates of Caribbean release today. First show is in 9.00 pm. This is one of my listed must-watch movies this year after Shrek, Harry Potter and The Chronicles of Narnia. Can’t wait to watch Johhny Deep but, unfortunately, I have to wait until Friday. Huhuhuhuu..so disappointed. It’s all because of my work; I have to face a strange number of works that began to increase day by day. Geeezzzz…I hate this. But this is my responsibility so I have to make it no matter what happen.

Other? 24th May..I have to go to watch Tan Cheng Lock that also released today..hahaha. Those who loves play, don’t forget to watch it, starting today until 3rd Jun, at Panggung Sari, Istana Budaya. Tickets are only RM20, RM 30 and RM50. Quite cheap for me. Maybe because of something special about this play. I like Kenji Sawahi as an actor but to watch him in a play, that’s what I’m waiting for.